Last week i told my boyfriend something i thought he could keep to his self and he went and told people.... because 1-3grade i was malested by my little brothers dad... and i finally told and got taken away and when i got home my mom started physically abusing me and mentally abusing me.... and till this day which im in 9th grade he touches me in wrong ways.... i dont know what to do... I feel like **** all the time any more... thats why i moved with my dad but i still have to see my mom every other weekend and my little brother was told when we lived with his dad to hit me with golf clubs and lock me out of the house when he was like 4 and i was like 10.... and last night he told me i was fat and he hit me with a softball bat in the ribs! and i cant do anything about it, and my mom pretends like she dont see it happening! I have tried to over dose on medicen before.... actually almost 10 different times...

OH and my mom just told me that my dad told her when she was pregnet with my older brother that he might have herpies! what should i do.... i feel even worse now! im 14 come on do i go to the doctor and im scared to ask my dad if its true!