I am only 18 and I just lost my mother a little less than 3 months ago. This has been so hard on me because I have spent pratically every day all day with my mom ( I was homeschooled most my life). I have been suffering really bad health for the last year and doctors have been unable to figure out what's wrong...I have been miserable and very depressed...but this only brought my mom and I closer to eachother. Recently I have lost all my friends, which forced me to become more open with my mom...and now she is gone as well. I have been struggling with major depression for many years and right now it just seems so unbearable without my mom or any friends around. I don't want to be here anymore, I don't feel like life is worth the effort. So many temptations are surrounding me and I don't know how much longer I can keep resisting. I'm afraid of what might happen if/when I snap soon.